Welcome to
Gabriela Klan's Campaign

I am fundraising on behalf of Youth Suicide Prevention Ireland and this is my story: I have started this campaign a couple of years ago, because I wanted to do a little good, haven't actually done the jump just yet. I have never thought that suicide could "happen" to me and then all the sudden, my life was changed forever.

August 14, 2022 it was a Sunday like every other. Late evening my phone was ringing, it was my sister calling me from Romania. I can still hear the trembling in her voice when she said Gabrielle, mum hanged herself. It was like a bad joke, I remember repeating No, no, no, she did not! My sister said she did it, I am here. Dad found her in the shed and cut the rope, the paramedics are here trying to resuscitate her for the third time. It happened almost a year ago, and I know it probably sounds silly, but I still can't believe that she's gone. A friend of mine said to me that the victim's pain ends with suicide, but it's the beginning of endless suffering for all the loved ones left behind. She was kept alive for five days, hooked up to machines. I'm not going to go into describing the horrors of seeing her like that in the hospital and the police investigation that we were put through while we were losing her. We agreed to donate her viable organs because that's what she would've wanted. She was the kind of person who would help anybody and everybody with the little that she had. My mum saved three people's lives in her death.

I want you to know that she was the best mother she could've been! She raised me and my sister to be hardworking, humble, respectful, kind, honest and not to hurt anybody because life is hard enough as it is. Her family was very poor. She lost her father due to a serious illness when she was just a child and was raised by an abusive alcoholic workaholic mother who never really cared for her. She lived with chronic pain and depression her entire life. She deserved a happy ending, which never came. 
For me the hardest part in coping with her suicide is that for the rest of the world it's like nothing has ever happened, life goes on, but for me and my family nothing will ever be the same again. I'm tormenting myself constantly with all the could've should've would've that I didn't do to save her, all the questions to which the answers never come, the guilt I have to live with for the rest of my life, the constant fear of rejection and abandonment, all the things that remain unsaid forever, the goodbye I didn't get the chance to have and of course the ever present sadness and grief. If I could, I would give my life to bring her back. But I can't. 
So please, if you can, give someone the chance to get HELP to save themselves from suicide. Give someone a chance to spare their loved ones from this endless suffering. You can sponsor by credit card or by bank deposit using the buttons below. You can also text a €4 donation to my campaign and details are shown below as well.

Thank you so much for your support
Best Wishes